Sleepless

It’s 5 in the morning.

I have been up since 3. The nights shifts had screwed up my body clock a little bit. I wasn’t able to reset it as well as the previous stretch. Couldn’t get back to sleep despite only 5 hours of sleep.

Perhaps I have too much on my mind.

I would need to work harder on my study. I told the director it will be my last attempt next year. And I am thinking of taking the next year off and postpone my clinical exam, if I do pass , till 2015.

My knee is healing pretty well. Been going to the gym occasionally to work on it. I was pretty adamant to get back onto the basketball court last year. At this point in time, I am not too sure. The knee is not as strong as before. The hamstring hurts at times. Progress is anything but fast, nor was it noticeable on a weekly basis. Funny thing is, only going though the weight training only did I realise my leg strength was unequal. With at least 20 kg difference in quad strength.

Still doing it pretty okay. Now that we are in late April and I am still putting my time and sweats in gym.

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I think I am rather uninspired at the moment.

Right now, there isn’t much to look forward to. I do miss the times where there is this one person you hope and look to catch every morning, be it in the streets, or during work. Or the anticipation when asking her out, hoping that it would be a positive answer, but often met with disappointments. Or the wait for a phone call from her, that never came.

Disappointments were plentiful but it definitely made my life more colorful, nevertheless.

I do wonder what was going through her minds at times. And also what went wrong.

But that’s all history now. In fact, it has been for a while, unbeknownst to many.

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I need to ramp up my productivity in study soon.

I think I am pretty good at my job. But I had to be after doing the same job for 3 years now while my peers had moved onto specialties training.

I also had the misfortune of offending the bosses with the untimely injury and surgery. They, to my disappointments, would hear none of it. A pretty bad move on my part, considering I have always tread it pretty carefully.

That also means I have an uncertain future next year in my current organization.

Ah….. Such is life.

It’s 530 am now. It’s time to head to the hospital and get my ethics application for a research project and probably head to the gym as well.

Perhaps I will bump into this lovely girl I just met. Unfortunately, she is already committed.

Life does have its way of surprising you.

Arrivederci.